Tuesday, September 28, 2010

back down to the ground

So i thought i failed my business test last week, but when i checked my grade yesterday, i was pleasantly surprised to see i actually did okay! not as great as i would have preferred definitely, but MUCH better than i thought. well, today we went over the test a little bit in class, and it turns out that there was a huge curve. so without the curve, i actually did as bad as i thought i did, even worse. so that brought me down a little bit to say the least

Monday, September 27, 2010

"when we say things like people don't change, it drives scientists crazy. because change is literally the only constant in all of science. energy; matter; it's always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. it's the way people try not to change that's unnatural. the way we cling to the way things were instead of letting them be what they are. the way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. the way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. change is constant. how we experience change-that's up to us. it can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. if we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. like at any moment, we can have another chance at life. like at any moment, we can be born all over again"-meredith grey

Sunday, September 26, 2010


Well the summer heat is finally starting to go away! yesterday we had a football game, and for the first time it started to feel like fall! there was a crisp breeze and leaves are starting to change colors and fall everywhere. i especially like walking on the sidewalks stepping on the crunchiest leaves. it is such a beautiful time; even though i'm sad that summer is ending, i know it will be back again and i have to say i'm a little excited not arriving at class all sweaty from the walk! i can't get over how pretty fall is- i love smelling the freshness in the air, drinking hot chocolate on a cool day, and watching the seasons change. although i am completely dreading winter, especially with my hike to class, i am glad to know it's still far off. i hope to just enjoy autumn and appreciate all of the colors around me!

Friday, September 24, 2010


It is so windy out today, which is a nice change from the hot weather we've been having. i hate sweating just walking to class! i have a math test in an hour and i really don't feel like studying anymore even though i know i should. so that's mainly why i'm writing because i don't want to study. ahhhhh bye for now

Thursday, September 23, 2010


Étudier means "to study" in french (for those people not as obsessed with the language as i am). Anyways why is this so hard for me to do??? i had a test today and i have one tomorrow too. thank goodness they were not on the same day or i honestly don't know what i would do. like many people i am SUCH a procrastinator. it's a habit i really wish i could get rid of. but i doubt that will happen any time soon. for some reason i cannot make myself do work unless it's crunch time. and when it is, i can get through books and hardly be distracted at all. unfortunately, by that time, i don't have enough time to read the material and study it. it's not that i'm not organized. i am. i write down everything in my planner, line up all of my books, and make great study plans. i just have the hardest time sticking to the study plans i create! when i do follow them and force myself to do some textbook reading, i can't focus and read paragraphs over and over. gahhhhh. but enough about that. i just have a math test tomorrow and then i'm free! who even knows what i'll do this weekend- but probably a lot of relaxing! and hopefully some library time to get caught up on the classes i've fallen behind on this week. we'll see if that actually happens....

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

modern family

Modern family is currently my favorite show EVER. it is hilarious and if you have never seen it before i suggest you get over to ch131.com and watch it now. the humor is really subtle and it just makes me laugh and laugh for the stupidest reasons. all of the characters are so funny, it's hard to even pick a favorite because they are all so unique. also, each episode has a little life lesson at the end, which i like. i think the main reason i love this show so much is because it depicts a family and everything that goes along with a family-the fighting, the disagreements, the silliness, the complexities, the mistakes, and the togetherness. maybe i'm analyzing it too much? but oh well, it is a great show and puts me in a good mood no matter what! i have a TON of work to do, but i let myself have a half hour break to watch....actually i have been taking way too many breaks whoops. anyways longer post later after this crazy week is over!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

good day.

I realized recently that i really only blog about bad things in my life..i guess it's just a way for me to get my feelings out. but i usually am a pretty positive person. so i'm going to write about yesterday which was a GREAT day (i was too tired to write last night). anyways, it started off normally enough: i went to class in the morning, studied in the library, went to class again, and then did a psych experiment. then i came back to my room and relaxed for a little bit. then meri came to visit! she goes to school a little under an hour away. it was so great and just a wonderful way to start my week. we went out to dinner at a thai restaurant and even though we both were doubled over in pain because of our stomach aches afterwards, it was totally worth it. then we went on a little walk around campus, came back to my room, and watched heathers. it was just so much fun and so good to have someone who knows me so well here. i don't think she reads this but just in case THANKS MER!!!!! it's just so comforting knowing that she is so close and we can visit each other so easily. that truly is the best thing about coming here so far; i guess this is part of being closer to home because now i'm closer to all of my friends and visits are a lot easier. hopefully i'll get to visit her soon too! anyways, what an exciting monday.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

homesick part 2

So my mom just visited me which was amazing! But she stayed less than a day :( so hard, but i know she really had to get home. anyways, seeing her was amazing but now i just miss her so much and i am sitting in my room all alone so that is really hard. i just miss her so much. we really have gotten a lot closer. it is SO weird though and i don't understand this...last year i was so much farther away from home, yet i really wasn't this homesick at all. i definitely missed everyone, but not this much. maybe because i was having such a good time and not thinking about it as much. having a roommate who was also a built in best friend helped a lot too. i think i'm having a such a hard time because i don't have a really close friend here yet-that is something i have always needed to keep me going. but i know i just have to give it time and there are so many people here that i will meet. patience is just harder than it seems

Monday, September 13, 2010


I am soooo homesick and i know this is a stupid thing to complain about but i just have to write about it. i usually have no problems with missing home, but i guess this summer i just became closer to my family in new ways and i really appreciated the comforts of being home. i'm going home in about 2 and a half weeks but it just isn't soon enough. the thing is, when i'm at home i'll probably just lie around the house, read, and watch tv, all of which i can do here, but there's something not the same about it. even though it's basically still summer, i can't stop thinking about the holidays. there is something so great about everyone being together in the cold weather with a fire in the living room and apple pie. i can't even remember the last time we had apple pie, but something about it feels comforting and reminds me of home. i also miss all of my friends a TON probably because it's kind of lonely here. it's not that i don't know anyone, it's just a different atmosphere- much bigger and less personal. there are definitely good things and bad things about that but sometimes it just gets to me. counting down the days til i see everyone again!

Sunday, September 12, 2010


i have been having a lot of nightmares lately and i don't know why. i am a person who really thinks that dreams mean something, and i am not going to write exactly what mine have been about but it's pretty obvious that they mean something. i think that dreaming is our brain's way of working out something that we are struggling with. anyways, my nightmares are not always exactly the same but they have been about pretty much the same thing. i just don't know how to get these bad things out of my head i guess and i don't know how to deal with it. how can you stop thinking about something and stop letting it consume you??

Monday, September 6, 2010

new beginnings

So it has been a long time since i posted! i guess i have just been sooooo busy..not sure if this is a good thing or not. it is now september, which usually makes me think of new things..new books, new classes, a new school year. but this year EVERYTHING is new, which i'm not sure if i like. school definitely isn't as bad as it could be, but it doesn't feel like home yet. i'm not really comfortable and i'm missing everyone that i'm close with. one good thing is that all of my friends and i have done a good job with keeping up so far. i text them daily and we've been skyping/ talking on the phone a lot. so that's reassuring. anyways, i guess i'm just really homesick right now. i'm thinking about going home soon for a weekend. i don't know why, but there's something about sleeping in your own bed and being around your family that's reassuring! hopefully i'll continue adjusting and everything and get passed the homesickness. more later.