back down to the ground

So i thought i failed my business test last week, but when i checked my grade yesterday, i was pleasantly surprised to see i actually did okay! not as great as i would have preferred definitely, but MUCH better than i thought. well, today we went over the test a little bit in class, and it turns out that there was a huge curve. so without the curve, i actually did as bad as i thought i did, even worse. so that brought me down a little bit to say the least

"when we say things like people don't change, it drives scientists crazy. because change is literally the only constant in all of science. energy; matter; it's always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. it's the way people try not to change that's unnatural. the way we cling to the way things were instead of letting them be what they are. the way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. the way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. change is constant. how we experience change-that's up to us. it can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. if we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. like at any moment, we can have another chance at life. like at any moment, we can be born all over again"-meredith grey

fall

Well the summer heat is finally starting to go away! yesterday we had a football game, and for the first time it started to feel like fall! there was a crisp breeze and leaves are starting to change colors and fall everywhere. i especially like walking on the sidewalks stepping on the crunchiest leaves. it is such a beautiful time; even though i'm sad that summer is ending, i know it will be back again and i have to say i'm a little excited not arriving at class all sweaty from the walk! i can't get over how pretty fall is- i love smelling the freshness in the air, drinking hot chocolate on a cool day, and watching the seasons change. although i am completely dreading winter, especially with my hike to class, i am glad to know it's still far off. i hope to just enjoy autumn and appreciate all of the colors around me!

windyy

It is so windy out today, which is a nice change from the hot weather we've been having. i hate sweating just walking to class! i have a math test in an hour and i really don't feel like studying anymore even though i know i should. so that's mainly why i'm writing because i don't want to study. ahhhhh bye for now

étudier

Étudier means "to study" in french (for those people not as obsessed with the language as i am). Anyways why is this so hard for me to do??? i had a test today and i have one tomorrow too. thank goodness they were not on the same day or i honestly don't know what i would do. like many people i am SUCH a procrastinator. it's a habit i really wish i could get rid of. but i doubt that will happen any time soon. for some reason i cannot make myself do work unless it's crunch time. and when it is, i can get through books and hardly be distracted at all. unfortunately, by that time, i don't have enough time to read the material and study it. it's not that i'm not organized. i am. i write down everything in my planner, line up all of my books, and make great study plans. i just have the hardest time sticking to the study plans i create! when i do follow them and force myself to do some textbook reading, i can't focus and read paragraphs over and over. gahhhhh. but enough about that. i just have a math test tomorrow and then i'm free! who even knows what i'll do this weekend- but probably a lot of relaxing! and hopefully some library time to get caught up on the classes i've fallen behind on this week. we'll see if that actually happens....

modern family

Modern family is currently my favorite show EVER. it is hilarious and if you have never seen it before i suggest you get over to ch131.com and watch it now. the humor is really subtle and it just makes me laugh and laugh for the stupidest reasons. all of the characters are so funny, it's hard to even pick a favorite because they are all so unique. also, each episode has a little life lesson at the end, which i like. i think the main reason i love this show so much is because it depicts a family and everything that goes along with a family-the fighting, the disagreements, the silliness, the complexities, the mistakes, and the togetherness. maybe i'm analyzing it too much? but oh well, it is a great show and puts me in a good mood no matter what! i have a TON of work to do, but i let myself have a half hour break to watch....actually i have been taking way too many breaks whoops. anyways longer post later after this crazy week is over!

good day.

I realized recently that i really only blog about bad things in my life..i guess it's just a way for me to get my feelings out. but i usually am a pretty positive person. so i'm going to write about yesterday which was a GREAT day (i was too tired to write last night). anyways, it started off normally enough: i went to class in the morning, studied in the library, went to class again, and then did a psych experiment. then i came back to my room and relaxed for a little bit. then meri came to visit! she goes to school a little under an hour away. it was so great and just a wonderful way to start my week. we went out to dinner at a thai restaurant and even though we both were doubled over in pain because of our stomach aches afterwards, it was totally worth it. then we went on a little walk around campus, came back to my room, and watched heathers. it was just so much fun and so good to have someone who knows me so well here. i don't think she reads this but just in case THANKS MER!!!!! it's just so comforting knowing that she is so close and we can visit each other so easily. that truly is the best thing about coming here so far; i guess this is part of being closer to home because now i'm closer to all of my friends and visits are a lot easier. hopefully i'll get to visit her soon too! anyways, what an exciting monday.