I've been remembering a lot of things from the past lately. They just come and flood my head and I can't stop them. I laugh at first and then cry because they're gone and they will never be back. Sometimes I wish I could forget my entire childhood because it just hurts so much to look back and know that things will never be like that, I don't know if I can ever be as happy as I was when Julia was well. I miss her so much and it's so hard.