h8

Why do I have to live with somebody who hates me and is mean to me all of the time? Maybe he doesn't hate me, but why does he have to start a screaming match with me out of nowhere? Why does he bring up things from the past that I cannot change and just start yelling at me and complaining and saying how awful I am? Why does he use paying for college as a tool against EVERYTHING? Maybe it is just the beers talking, maybe it is other resentments, but do I really deserve to be screamed at? If this isn't abuse, I don't know what is. I would rather be hit or beat up than be yelled at and brought down like this. Why, on top of everything else, is this happening to me. I wish I could fix whatever I did to deserve it.