Honestly

life is so unfair. it really sucks. so enjoy everyday that you have and never forget to remember all of the good things in your life because one day they could truly all be taken away without any warning

wow.

it has really been a LONG time since i've written. but someone mentioned blogging the other day and it made me want to get back to my blog. it is just weird to me because it's sort of like a diary in a way, but it's open for people to read. i guess i could make it private but i kind of like that it's out there for other people to see if they want to. anyways, a lot has happened recently. summer is coming to an end so i'm pretty bummed. it also seems like a lot more than just summer has come to an end. a lot of things are changing and i don't want them to. i feel like life is really all about holding onto things and then getting them taken away from us. nothing lasts forever, and some things only last for a short amount of time. things are always changing. and while this is SO unfair i guess that's just the way it is and there's nothing to do about it. my whole life i feel like i have fought against this idea, but what if for once i just embraced it? what if i didn't fight life? this really seems impossible but it's something to think about

wherever you go, there you are

this is something to consider

upset

i feel like i only write in this when i'm upset, but i just can't help it. i don't even want to say what happened because it is embarrassing but i am just SO upset. i don't think anyone knows that this is bothering me but i want to try to keep it together and not seem like i am dying inside. much worse things have happened in my life, and this is hardly the end of the world, but sometimes it's hard to handle disappointments.

ughhh

sometimes i honestly hate my life. i was convinced for a while that i liked it, but not anymore. today i did not vacuum the house so my parents completely blew up at me. i'm sorry i didn't vacuum. i really didn't feel like it. i will do it tomorrow. why is it such a big deal???? but now everyone is mad at each other and it is awful. ahhhhhh

baby names

sometimes, i go to baby name websites and look for names i like for my future children. is that weird?

SNOW

Today was the first snow of the season, at least in Virginia! it is so pretty, and just makes everything seem better. we have decorated our room and i have been listening to a lot of christmas music, but now i really feel like i'm in the spirit for the holidays! i am excited to go home, kind of. i'm just worried i will fight with my mom again like last time, but i'm hoping that since it's a longer break, that won't happen. anyways, let it snow let it snow let it snow!