Last day

Today was my last day of class. Sophomore year is over. It is so so weird. When I think of where I was last year at this time, it makes me so sad. So much has changed. But I guess some things have changed for the better. Sometimes you just have to stop asking what if? and accept things for what they are, both the good and the bad.

good and bad

The semester is ending. I'll be happy to be home....for about 5 hours. Then I will be bored. And my parents will start fighting. And my dad will yell at me. And my sister will be sick. And I'll have nothing to do, no escape. As much as I wish I was home sometimes, I also dread it. My friends will only be a car ride away, but it will seem far. I can't even run to escape things, since my foot still isn't healed. I am looking forward to going home, but also, not really.

Exhaustion

That is just all I feel right now. I wonder if I'm getting sick? I kind of hope so, because at least it would be an explanation.

tv

I really hate how on tv shows people survive car crashes. They beat cancer. They don't get real diseases. In real life, people don't get "lucky," they don't "pull through." In real life, people die, lives change, people get hurt, and people fall apart. Forever.

worried

I feel like I'm falling apart. I can see myself drifting into this bad state..where I make bad decisions and don't focus on anything. There are only 3 weeks of school left, and I don't want to blow my entire semester on this. Can it just please wait until I get home for summer THEN I can deal with things and sleep for a week? I don't have time to do that now.

STRESS...........................fracture

Tragedy. I think I have a stress fracture and I have been walking with a limp everywhere. It's awful if you can't imagine. Anyways, last night I finally went to the ER. I had to wait in the waiting room for an hour, then a patient room for an hour, get the x-ray, then wait for a doctor to come in and tell me that they didn't see anything on the x-ray......so I should just rest my foot and lay off the running. Uhhhh, thanks, I already found that out from googling stress fracture treatment a million times. So frustrating. And while I'm happy nothing worse is going on, it's hard that there is nothing proactive I can do about it. Oh well. Just hope that it gets better because the limp thing is getting old/embarrassing.