I have a new obsession

It is watching the bachelorette. Pretty embarrassing that I waste my time watching a stupid tv show but it's so addicting

"It could always be worse"

is one of the least comforting sayings ever.
Even though it is very true.

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Why do I have to live with somebody who hates me and is mean to me all of the time? Maybe he doesn't hate me, but why does he have to start a screaming match with me out of nowhere? Why does he bring up things from the past that I cannot change and just start yelling at me and complaining and saying how awful I am? Why does he use paying for college as a tool against EVERYTHING? Maybe it is just the beers talking, maybe it is other resentments, but do I really deserve to be screamed at? If this isn't abuse, I don't know what is. I would rather be hit or beat up than be yelled at and brought down like this. Why, on top of everything else, is this happening to me. I wish I could fix whatever I did to deserve it.

Everyday

I see pain and suffering. And it's hard. And I hate it. How can I be in a good mood when I'm faced with the same horrors day after day

There is no better feeling than taking a cold shower after a run.

mixed messages

So, last night I saw the movie Something Borrowed. I have been wanting to see it FOREVER because 1. I read the book and liked it, 2. I saw the preview and thought it seemed great, and most importantly 3. I love John Krasinski. So anyways, finally the day came that I saw it. People have been criticizing the movie, so I wanted to see why they were complaining too. Maybe some will think I'm a bad person, but I LOVED this movie. Obviously, it won't win Oscars, but I consider myself very knowledgeable in the chick flick movie area (having seen most), and it was the best I've seen in a while! Basically, people don't like that the main character betrayed her best friend, and that in the end, she picked the guy over her best friend. Well, guess what, her best friend was rude and selfish and treated her terribly, so I would say her best friend betrayed her every single day by not really caring about her. Anyways, if you haven't seen it, I recommend it! Read the book too, and others by Emily Giffin if you like fun reads.

National running day

Ran one mile today....but it was the first mile I have run in 2 months. What a weird feeling, it was actually difficult to run at a pace that used to be easy for me. It's going to be hard not to rush back into running (especially when no one in my family take the stress fracture seriously), but I know I'll only get injured again if I do. In the meantime, I'll focus on getting back into shape. Happy running!!